Today

Today is not the day. 
Today is not the day, 
but it is.

In a matter of hours I’ll be looking at her, 
laying in her brand new bed.
It’s not as big as the one in her room, 
but I was told that she looks like she’s sleeping.

I will try my best to keep it together
since she’ll be looking down,
but I can’t guarantee that my eyes or heart
will agree with my truest of intentions.

Today is not the day
that I view her for the last time. 
It can’t be another encounter where 
I talk but silence says something in return.

Today is not the day.
Today is not the day.
She isn’t really gone.

written September 4, 2016.